maybe i didn't make myself clear.
or you didn't catch me.
whats the point of waiting when i told you that your chances are zero to none?
what i sent the other day.
i didn't know why i did it.
but it was true.
but if it made you hope.
or gave you the strength to wait longer.
i'm sorry.
i didn't think that it would turn out this way.

you keep telling me things.
and i keep listening to them.
and the more i feel that maybe.
i don't want to know you.
and that when you know me.
for who i really am.
you'd run away.
yeah, sure.
feelings are involved.
but what am i to do when my head and my heart are conflicting?
relationships aren't as easy as it seems.
you said we haven't tried.
but i'm sick of trying.
its getting too much for me to take.
i'm trying in every aspect of my life and its just sick.
i've found my direction.
i know where i'm going.
thats all i need for now.
what i need is for you to be there to support me as well.
not as a boyfriend.
but as a friend.